I don’t know what to do. They’re not going to help me. If I want to get through peacefully, I have to do what they want. That means I have to quit. My life will go back to revolving around school. Being a full time student again. But the thing is… That’s not what I want to do. I want to do many things. I want to work while I’m in school. I honestly believe that it’s better for me that way. But I’ll have no support. I’d go through college alone. And I don’t know if I can handle THAT much. To go through the path where everything is taken care of, but I’d be confined and limited. Or to be as free as I want while I struggle to find means.
I pray God will give me the sense of direction I need.